KO was a student and the typical little girl submissive – I don’t mean that in the sense that she liked age play but more in the way that she liked to be the little girl that you care for and that doesn’t have any responsibilities.

My relationship with KO began normal and over time we trusted each other and played regularly with each other online – we also visited each other…

I did notice that a lot of stuff was happening in the background with her and after some time she confessed to me that she was raped when she was young.

Now you might object playing with somebody who was hurt in that way – in my opinion, the best way to regain confidence and power is to be able to give it and take it in your own free will, so I tried to provide that for her and over time her understanding of sexuality improved and the more positive aspects, especially about BDSM taught her that what happened to her was the exception.

We would have a lot of fun with toys and she would eventually open up about a lot of her fears, thoughts and dreams.

Sadly at the same time, she also changed her attitude towards play in general and raised her demands on playtime and especially aftercare.

This would go so far that she guilt tripped me often to stay longer than we agreed (and I would miss appointments) and ended in her demanding aftercare for an hour after 10 minutes of light play.

I would only later realize that I was in a toxic relationship for some time in which I was manipulated to give what she needed regardless of my own feelings or my surroundings.

I tried to solve it via talks but then ended it because she was too stuck in her way and wasn’t seeing that she hurt me.